Sawal: Aap apna khandaani tareef karaiye? Jawab: Main maghribi UP ke ek baray qasbay mein ek tajir lala khandaan mein 3rd September 1984 ko paida hui, mera khandaani naam Seema Gupta tha, ibtedai taleem qasbay ke mohalla ke ek school mein hui. Primary ke baad girls inter college se inter kiya, us ke baad be kaam kiya, phir private sociallogy (samajiyaat) se MA kiya, mere do bhai aur ek behan hain ek bhai baray hain aur do bhai behan chhote hain, hamare pitaji (walid sahib) karana ki thok ki dukaan karte hain, bohot shareef bhale aadmi hain, meri mataji (walida) bhi bohat neek aur bhali aurat hain. Sawal: Apne qubool e Islam ke bare mein bataye? Jawab: Hamare qasbay mein hindu musalman dono rahate hain. Badi tadad mein musalman hamare mohalla se mile hue mohalla mein rahate hain, jin se hamare ghar ka bohot gehra talluq tha. Walid sahib ka karana ki dukaan ki wajah se sab se leen deen bhi tha. Hamari deewar se ek ghar chhod kar ek zameen daar khan sahib rahate thay un ke bachay hamare sath primary school mein padhte thay, hamara aur un ka ek doosre ke ghar aana jana tha. Un ki ek larki Sabiha Khan meri sath inter tak parhti rahi, us se meri bohot dosti thi, un ka gharana bohat saaf suthra aur deeni gharana hai. Sabiha ka ek bara bhai bohat shareef aur bohat khubsoorat tha. Woh mujhe dekhta to Sabiha se kehta Seema to bilkul aisi lagti hai jaise hamare ghar ki hi fard ho. Yun woh bohat sharmeela nojawan tha. Main ghar mein hoti to woh sharm ki wajah se bahar chala jata, mujhe kuch is ke sath ajeeb sa lagaao ho gaya tha. Main kabhi Sabiha se kehti ke Sabiha tumhara bhai to larkion se bhi sharmeela hai. Sabiha kehti, behn ab to zamana ulta ho gaya hai, ab larkiyan kahan sharmati hain larkay hi sharmate hain. Is tarah kabhi kabhi zamana ki kharabiyon ki baat shuru ho jati, ek akhbar mein be sharmi aur be hayaai ki khabar, ek baap ke apni beti ke sath munh kala karne ki, ek sage mamoon ki be sharmi ki khabar parhi to hum der tak zamana ke kharab hone ka zikr karte rahe. Main ne kaha ke kal ye'ug aagaya hai, is ke theek karne ke liye hamare dharmik granth mein aaya hai ke kal ki utar aayen ge aur woh is bigaadi ko sudhaaren ge. Main ne kaha pata nahi, hamare jeewan (zindagi) mein kal ki utar aayen ge ya nahi, ya hamare marne ke baad aayen ge? Sabiha ne kaha ke Seema jin kal ki utar ki tum baat kar rahi ho woh to aakar chale gaye. Main ne kaha tum kaise kehti ho? Woh boli main tumhein ek kitaab deti hoon, us ne apni almari se ek chhoti si kitaab ''Kal ki utar aur Mohammad sahib'' nikali aur mujhe di, dekho yeh bohot bade scholars, Pandit Vaid Par kaash apadhaye, jin ki yeh kitaab hai, main ne woh kitaab le li. Usi din main ne Sabiha se un ke bhai ke sath ajeeb lagaao ka zikr kiya us ne bataya ke bhai jan bhi tumhein pasand karte hain, magar sharma ki wajah se tumhare samne nahi aate, main ne kaha, kya tumhare bhai jan shaadi ke liye hindu ho sakte hain, us ne kaha ke ek musalman ka hindu hona to namumkin hai, haan islam ko jaanta hi na ho to doosri baat hai, is liye ke islam aisa haq aur sacha mazhab hai ke agar aadmi usse jaanne ke baad islam chhod na chahe to chhod nahi sakta, dil se islam ke haq hone ka yaqeen nahi nikal sakta. Us ne kaha hamari aankhein dekh rahi hain ke din nikal raha hai, ab agar koi mujh se kahe das lakh rupaye le lo aur yeh kaho ke raat ho rahi hai, ya phir rifle ki goli sir par laga kar kaho ke khorat ho rahi hai to ho sakta ke kisi bade lalach aur kisi khauf se zabaan se kah doon ke haan raat ho rahi hai, magar mera dil aur zameer yeh kehta rahe ga ke din ko raat kaise samjhoon. Sabiha ne kaha: Seema agar tum islam ko padhoge aur sachai jaanne ki koshish karoge to tum bhai jan ko hindu bananeke bajaye khud zaroori samjho gi ke shadi to ho magar mujhe musalman ban jana chahiye. maine kaha sabiha, yeh baat to hai ke musalman apne mazhab mein bohot kattar hote hain, doosre mazhab walay itne kattar nahi hote. sabiha ne kaha ke har aadmi jo sach par ho ta hai mazboot ho ta hai aur jo khud hi shak mein ho woh kaise kisi baat par jam sakta hai. bohot deer tak hum baat karte rahe, din chupne ko ho gaya, main ghar aayi, sabiha ki baaton ke bare mein sochti rahi, raat ko sotay waqt maine woh kitaab utha i aur parhi, chhoti si kitaab thi, puri parh daali to hairat hui ke woh kalki utaar to hazrat Muhammad ﷺ hain. yeh kitaab deoband se chipi hai, is ke peeche kuch aur kitaabon ke naam bhi likhe thay, narashans aur antam rishi, islam ek pereche, marne ke baad kya hoga? islam kya hai? aap ki amanat aap ki siwamein waghera, maine agle roz sabiha se kaha yeh kitaabein mujhe chahiye, usne kaha is mein se ''aap ki amanat aap ki siwamein'' to humare mamoon molana ke yahan mil sakti hai, main tumhein la kar doongi, maine un se kaha, bhool mat jana, is ko mamoon ke yahan jane ka mauka na laga, main taqaza karti rahi, das roz tak main kehte kehte bechain si rahi, das roz ke baad ek chhoti si kitaab ''aap ki amanat aap ki siwamein'' sabiha ne mujhe la kar di, is kitaab ka naam ek insaan ke liye aisa dil ko chhune wala hai ke naam parh kar ek ajeeb talab paida ho jati hai, ke hamari kya amanat hai maloom to karein ''do shubd'' is mein molana wasi sahab ne likhe hain, mera khayal hai ke ''do shubd'' ki do tein lines parhne ke baad koi aadmi is kitaab ko parhe baghair nahi reh sakta aur bilkul musalmano aur islam ke bare mein dil mein dushmani aur nafrat rakhne wala insaan bhi in do shubdon ko parhne ke baad is kitaab ko ghair ki baat samajh kar nahi parh sakta hai, is ka dil o dimagh is kitaab ke likhne wale ko apna sucha dost samajh kar hi is ko parhe ga. main is kitaab ko le kar ghar aayi aur bas kitaab puri parhi, maine apni chhoti behan aur maan se kaha ke main aap ko bohot achi cheez parh kar sunaun gi. un ko bitha liya aur parhna shuru kiya, woh sunti rahin aur boli yeh kis ki kitaab hai, maine kaha mazhar nagar ke ek molana ji ki likhi kitaab hai, meri maan ne kaha un se to zaroor milna chahiye is kitaab ke peeche title page par bhi kuch kitabon ke naam likhe thay, islam ek pereche, marne ke baad kya hoga? islam kya hai? kitni door kitne paas? wahi ek ekta ka aadhaar, narashans aur antam rishi, kalki utaar aur muhammad sahab, veda aur quran waghera, meri maan ne kaha beti yeh saari pustakein (kitabein) manga lein. sachi baat yeh hai musni behen! aap ki amanat ne meri andar ki dunya ko badal diya, main bas yeh sochti thi ke is samaaj mein main musalman hokar kis tarah rahoon, agar ghar chhod kar jaoon to main ladki zaat kahan jaoon gi, kaun mujhe rakhe ga, mere jane ke baad mere ghar walon par kaisi mushkil aayegi, mere bhai behnon ka kya hoga, mere maan baap aise bhale aur sachin log kaise jayenge, bas ek ajeeb khayalat ka toofan mere dil o dimagh par tha, islam ko aur jan ne ki khwahish paida ho gayi, maine apni ek doosri saheli fatima ko panch sau rupaye diye aur un kitabon ko mangwane ke liye kaha, ek hafta ke baad usne sirf 'marne ke baad kya hoga?' la kar diya aur baqi paise wapas de diye ke aur kitabein mili nahi, maine marne ke baad kya hoga kitab ko parha jannat dozakh ka aisa hal aur gunahon ki sazaon ka aisa zikr is kitab mein hai ke behis se behis aadmi bhi khauf kha jaye. is kitab ko parhne ke baad jannat dozakh meri aankhon ke samne bilkul aankhon dekhi cheez ban gayi, raat ko sone leti to har waqt meri aankhon ke samne qabar ka, hashar ka aur jannat dozakh ka manzar chalta rahta tha, do baar maine khwab mein jannat dekhi aur dozakh to na jane kitni baar dikhayi di, ab maine apni maan se musalman hone ki khwahish zahir ki unhone kaha ke deen se dunya sambhalni mushkil hoti hai, aaj kal ke samaaj mein dharm badalna aasan nahi hai, basAndar se sach ko sach samjho yeh bhi kaafi hai, woh malik dilon ke bhed ko jaanta hai, maine Sabiha se kaha ke agar main musalman ho jaaun to tumhaare bhai mujh se shaadi kar sakte hain ya nahi? Usne kaha ke woh kayi baar mujh se keh chuke hain ke agar Seema musalman ho jaaye to tum abu se meri shaadi kar sakte hain ya nahi? Main un se baat karungi, ab woh naukri ke liye mulk se bahar chale gaye hain, unka phone aaye ga to main baat karungi, Sabiha ke bhai ka phone aaya to usne unse baat ki, mujhe bataya ke bhai jaan keh rahe hain ke agar main ami abu ko raazi kar loon aur saari qanooni karwaai kar loon aur Seema ke ghar waale bhi raazi hon aur woh sachay dil se musalman ho jaaye to main shaadi karke bohot khushi mehsoos karoon ga, magar main koi khatra nahi le sakta. Is doran maine kisi tarah Quran Shareef ka Hindi tarjuma hasil kar liya, us ko padhna shuru kiya, sath sath main apni maa ko sunati thi, mujhe baaz aise khwab dikhaye gaye jin ke baad musalman hone ki bechaini bohot zyada barh gayi, raaton ko der tak mujhe neend nahi aati thi, main munh haath dhokar Quran padhne lagti, baat yahan tak barhi ke maine ghar chhorne ka faisla kar liya, is silsile mein mujhe kisi ne bataya ke "Aap ki amanat aap ki siwa mein" ke likhne wale Maulana Sahab ke yahan tumhaare liye yeh kaam aasan hai. Main ne ek pandrah saal ke musalman ladke ko tayaar kiya jo bohot deendar tha aur us ke saath phelt pahunchi, Maulana Sahab safar par gaye hue the, wahan par kuch logon ne mujh se islam qubool karne ki ghazish maloom ki, main ne kaha sirf islam qubool karna aur haq ko maanna, mujhe kalma padhwaya gaya aur merit bhejwa kar ek wakeel sahab se certificate banwa diya gaya. Ek Maulana ke ghar mein rahi, un ki behnon ne mujhe bohot mohabbat se rakha, ek hafta ke baad Maulana Sahab aaye. Sawal: Aap ki ghar mein talaash nahi hui? Jawab: Meri ghar mein talaash hi nahi hui, mera aana mere poore ilaake mein qayamat ban gaya, jab dhoondh pari aur khandan waale ikatthe hue to meri chhoti behen ne bata diya ke woh Sabiha ke bhai se shaadi karna chahti thi, halankeh ab aisa kuch nahi tha, ab sirf mujhe islam qubool karna tha, is par poore ilaake ke hindu samaj mein ek toofan khara ho gaya. Sabiha ke ghar waalon ki musibat aayi, unhone lakh kaha ke hamara ladka abhi mulk ke bahar hai, magar log kehte rahe ke aap ne hi us ladki ko ghayab kiya hai, akhbaron mein khabron par khabrein chhapti rahin, kayi baar bilkul amne samne fasad hone ko hua kuch samajhdaar logon ne mamla ko thanda kiya. Sawal: Us ke baad kya hua? Jawab: Maulana Sahab ek hafta ke baad phelt aaye, to unhone logon ne mere bare mein bataya. Maulana Sahab ne kaha ke wahan ke logon ke mere paas phone aaye, maine kaha hamare yahan is tarah ki koi ladki nahi aayi hai, poore ilaake mein fasad hone ko hai, behar haal mujhe bulaya aur mujh se kaha ke wahan to yeh mashhoor hai ke tum kisi ladke se shaadi karna chahti ho, mujh se kaha ke tum sach sach batao. Main ne kaha ke pehle main waqai aisa hi chahti thi, magar ab sirf islam padh kar main musalman ho gayi hoon, main kuch roz islam padhna chahti hoon agar us ladke se baad mein shaadi ho jaaye to achha hai, warna aap jis se chahen meri shaadi kar den. Maulana Sahab ne mujhe Dehli bhej diya, wahan ke kuch wakeelon se baat hui to unhone kaha koi ladka un se shaadi ko tayyar ho jaaye to sab se behtar qanooni aasani us mein hai Maulana Sahab ne kaha Agra mein ek Doctor hain, unhone mujh se kisi noo musalman se shaadi ke liye kaha hai, wajay wadha ke rehne waale hain, agar tum kaho to main tumhe un ke yahan bhej doon, mujhe takleef hui, main rone lagi, to Maulana Sahab samjhe ke main usi lDukay se shadi karna chahti hoon hamare ilaqe mein baat aur bigar gayi to maulana ne mujh se kaha iss waqt behtar yeh hai ke tum apne ghar chali jao aur apne ghar walon par kaam karo, maine kaha wahan jakar main bilkul bebas ho jaungi, aap mujhe iss kufr o shirk mein na bhejein, aap wahan meri kaise madad kar sakte hain, maulana ne kaha behan aap chali jao, main Allah ke bharose par tum se wada karta hoon ke tumhare walid aur waldah ke sath Allah aap ko nikalenge, mujhe yaqeen nahi aata tha, main bohot roi baar baar mujhe pani pilaya gaya, maulana ke jo saathi mujhe dilli le gaye thay unhone mujhe bohot samjha ya ke hazrat ki baat maan lo, Allah Ta'ala tumhare liye zaroor rasta nikalenge gaye, maine kaha aap meri shadi kisi mazdoor se, jharoo dene wale kisi faqeer se kardein magar mujhe wahan na bhejein, unhone kaha ke ab hazrat ne kaha hai uske khilaf hum tumhari koi madad nahi kar sakte. Main majbooran rote hue ghar jaane par raazi ho gayi, bas mujhe ticket dilwakar bitha diya gaya magrib ke baad main apne ghar pahunchi aur maine sab khandan walon ke samne apni maa se kaha: Kiya main aap se das roz ke liye keh kar nahi gayi thi ke main teerath par ja rahi hoon aur mujhe sapne mein jaane ko kaha gaya tha, aap ne ghar walon ko kyun nahi bataya? Aaj das din mein main aayi ke nahi? Sabiha ke ghar walon aur bohot se logon ko police ne uthaarkha tha, kisi tarah chhora gaya, mere khandan walay jamme hue aur mujh par barasne lage, maine socha. Khadija to haq par hai, haq walon ko darna nahi chahiye, maine kaha ke maine Islam qabool kar liya hai aur mera naam Seema nahi Khadija hai aur Islam se mujhe koi nahi hata sakta, meri phupho aur ek tai ne mujhe bohot mara aur na jane kaisi buri buri gaalian di, humein maloom hai to musalman hone ka dhong bhar kar aas se munh kala karne gayi thi aur aisi buri baat sunayi ke bayan karna mushkil hai, meri maa aur baap albatta bilkul narm thay, meri maa to andar se Islam ki sachai ko maan chuki thi. Mujhe qareeb ke bade sheher mein mere tai ke yahan pahunchaya gaya, main wahan namaz parhne ki koshish karti to ghar walay mere sath bohot ziyaati karte, ek raat main barah baje, isha ki namaz parhne lagi mere tai ke ladke ne meri kamar par sajda mein ek bohot bhari chaki jo purane zamane ki wahan thi woh rakh di mera dam nikalne ko ho gaya mujhe sahaba ke haalat yaad aaye maine kuch khane se inkaar kar diya, mujhe in ke yahan napaki ki wajah se bhi khane ko dil nahi chahta tha aur mujhe yeh bhi dar tha ke yeh mujhe zehr de dein gaye mere tai ne mere maan baap ko bulaya aur phir meri bua (phuphi) ke yahan mujhe bhijwa diya gaya, maine kaha main kisi ke ghar ka khana nahi khaungi, is mein zehr ka khatra hai, bazaar ka khana khaungi jo maan laakar dein gayi. Meri bua ke yahan meri itni ehtiyaat ke bawajood bhi mujhe teen martaba zehr dene ki koshish ki gayi, magar jis ko Allah rakhe usse kaun chakhe, ek baar billi ne kheer giradi, ek baar mujhe pehle khwab dikhaya gaya aur ek dafa meri bua ke potay ne woh kha liya, pandrah din tak use hospital mein rehna pada, jaan to bach gayi magar gurde kharab ho gaye. Sawal: Wahan se phir Allah ne kis tarah nikala? Jawab: Allah ne hazrat ke wada ki laaj rakh li, hazrat batate hain ke tumhein maine fasadat aur haalat kharab hone ke dar se bhej to diya magar jaise hi tum chali to mere kaan mein ghaib se kisi ne Quran ki yeh aayat parhi jismein Allah ne un auraton ko jo imaan qubool karke hijrat ke liye aayi hain yeh yaqeen hone ke baad ke woh usmein sachi hain kafiron ke paas lautane se mana kiya gaya hai. Sawal: Haan haan abu baar baar bohot afsos ke saath keh rahe thay ke Quran hakeem ki maine khilaf warzi ki hai, pehle se khayal nahi aaya, sab log dua karo Allah mujhe maaf farmaye.-align: justify;">Jawab: Aap ko maloom hai woh ayat? Sawal: Haan baar baar Abbi usay parhte thay: يٰٓاَيُّہَا الَّذِيْنَ اٰمَنُوْٓا اِذَا جَاۗءَكُمُ الْمُؤْمِنٰتُ مُہٰجِرٰتٍ ط فَامْتَحِنُوْہُنَّاَللہُ اَعْلَمُ بِـاِيْمَانِہِنَّ جفَاِنْ عَلِمْتُمُوْہُنَّ مُؤْمِنٰتٍ فَلَا تَرْجِعُوْہُنَّ اِلَى الْكُفَّار ط (الممتحنۃ:۱۰) Us ka tarjuma yeh hai: Aye imaan walon! Jab tumhare paas imaan wali aurton watan chhod kar aayen to unko jaanch lo, Allah khoob janta hai unke imaan ko, phir agar tum unko imaan par jaano, tum unko kafiron ki taraf mat phiro. Jawab: Hazrat batate hain ke is ayat sharifah ne mujhe jhunjhore diya, main baar baar Salat al-Tawbah parhta aur Allah ke huzoor dua karta, mere Allah! Aap ko agar daawat mohabbat hai aur aap ne is kam zarf bande ko apne kaam se joda hai to meri ghaltiyon aur gunahon ko kaun muaaf karega, mere Allah! Main bohot bara mujrim hoon, mujh se anjaane mein Quran Hakeem ki khilaf warzi ho gayi, mere Allah! Meri beti kaisi bikt...ki saaf khilaaf warzi karke ek momina ko kafir mein lootadene wale mujrim ke waade ki aap ne kaisi laaj rakhi, Maulana sahab ne bataya ke 25 rozay mein ne nadir maane hain, do sau naflain aur teen hazaar sadqa tumhare waapas aane ke liye, Maulana sahab ne badi hairat aur khushi se bataya ke jin andhera ke doctor sahab ke paas tumhein bhej kar shadi karne ko kehta tha woh doctor Shareeq yehi hain, jis ke saath mere Allah ne tumhari shadi karke mere ghar bhej diya. Sawal: Ajeeb baat hai? Jawab: Allah ta'ala apne deen ki daawat ka kaam karne wale ki, sacchi baat yeh hai ke badi naaz bardari karte hain. Sawal: Aap ki woh chhe mahine ki takleefain jhelne ki kahani wali diary aap ke paas hai? Jawab: Abhi nahi lai, main is ki photo copy karake aap ko bhejoongi, Hazrat sahab ne kaha hai ke woh hum chhupao ge, Maulana sahab ne kaha ke woh qist war armaghan mein chhupwane ke laiq hai. Sawal: Ab aap ke shohar apne ghar walon ke saath mein rehte hain? Jawab: Nahi! Woh abhi wahan Maharashtra Nagpur mein ek sarkari hospital mein aarzi mulazmat par hain, Delhi mein unhone apply kiya tha, Alhamdulillah interview bhi ho gaya aur unhone MD ke liye qualification kar liya hai, ab hum bohat jaldi Delhi aa jaayenge hum dono hi bus saath rehte hain. Sawal: Aap ke maan baap ka kya hua? Jawab: Main ne unko parso Delhi bulaya tha, Humayun ke maqbre ke park mein mulaqat hui woh ab apna qasba chhod kar hamare saath rehne ka program bana rahe hain, Alhamdulillah dono musalman ho gaye hain. Sawal: Bohat bohat shukriya Khadija behan! Waqai imaan to aap ka hai, hum log khandani musalmano ko imaan aur islam ki kya qadar ho sakti hai, aap hamare liye dua kijye, kuch hissa is imaan ka hamein bhi nasib ho jaaye? Jawab: Muthni aap ke ghar ke juto ke sadqay mein mujhe imaan mila hai, aap kaisi baatein kar rahi hain, aap ke ghar ke liye meri saat pushtain dua karein to kam hai. Sawal: Yeh aap ki badaai ki baat hai, barh hal bohat bohat shukriya, Assalamu Alaikum wa rehmatullahi wa barakatuh Mustafadaz Mahnama Armaghan, April 2009 AD